I read that somewhere. I wrote it down, and then I read it.
Saturday, December 20 Holiday happenings
Hi there folks! I hope things are going well with your holiday plans and festivities. This year is a bit suck for me, but I'm doing my best to make the best of it all. My friends and I have canceled gift exchanges due to the fact that we're all broke to some degree or another... and that's fine. We all love each other and we'll just do something next year if things are better all around.
We are all going away the week after Christmas to spend a little time together and away from it all. Just driving distance, no big huge travel - so should be easy and relaxing.
I took the step to start selling my jewelry, but the timing was bad because I sold almost everything before I did it and now I'm out of supplies to make much new... but things are coming, so I'll start again in a week or two.
Hmmm, can't think of much else right now... just sort of plugging along.
Hope you're all well and I wish you safe and happy holidays! posted by AM | 12/20/2008 09:58:00 PM
Friday, December 5 Good song.
First time I heard it my thoughts were "aww nice verse.... wow, again.... really??.... Oh Come ON!!!"
Now it's like WHO alert, it's infected me and I'm just hoping to recover someday. LOVE IT.
To get the same experience, I'd recommend clicking the link and then just minimizing the browser so you're only concentrating on the song. The video does nothing for it, IMO.
Be clicken here. posted by AM | 12/05/2008 07:02:00 PM
Wednesday, December 3 Hello there.
See, not quite so long this time! :)
I really appreciate all the responses, thanks so much guys. Glad to know a few of you are still flitting around out there! :D
So, I've been really busy getting ready for my first attempt at selling some stuff I've been making.... jewelry. I'm not really great at selling things or knowing that I"m doing something someone might find interesting. So anyway, we're having a little work fair tomorrow and I'm going to be selling some of my earrings... we'll see if anyone wants to buy them.
I told a friend about my anxiety and she said "of course, it's like having a party and thinking no one is going to show up"... and she is dead on. It feels vulnerable in a way, and I'm sort of an open wound lately... so hopefully I'll sell at LEAST one pair. That would at least give me some hope that I'm not just wasting time and money. I love the hobby, but if I can't get rid of any of it, what's the point!? hahaha
Here's a couple of pictures of things... everything is different, so I can't really show you all of them without boring you to death.
posted by AM | 12/03/2008 07:05:00 PM
Thursday, November 13 I know it's been a long time, and I know I start that way a lot.
So, in all honesty, it's been a terrible few months, and I'm trying hard to find my way out of it. It's been a struggle for me in a way that I've never really struggled before.
I'm ok, health is fine, family and friends are good, but my relationship ended and ... frankly, I just haven't done well with that. I guess it's a good sign of how much I gave to it, but it's hard to find a way out when the floor drops out.
So, in my effort to rebuild, reorganize, re"be" me... I thought about you all here, the few of you who may remain after all the time/neglect, and thought I'd really like to do something here to put a finer point on things.
So, I just updated the front page, with a bit of new text, plus the old so there is history in the meaning of all this stuff. I also removed, at least for now, all the old picture galleries.
I don't really have a good reason for doing this other than they're very old, and I feel they don't fully reflect where I am - hell, they don't even reflect what I look like really... hahah.
So, that's me... I'm here, and it's been 10 years on this little domain. Amazing really, and it's funny that soon after this site started I had a tremendous heartache in my life. It took me years and years to move on from it... strange to find myself in such similar, yet different, situation all these years later. Seems life really has a way of teaching you lessons. I have no idea what I'm supposed to learn here, but seems someone's going to make sure I hear the message.
Thanks for all the support, and I will still be blogging when I can. I just had to get my shit together a bit to be able to update here.
Thanks for reading. :) posted by AM | 11/13/2008 11:54:00 PM
Saturday, May 17 Hi everyone! :)
Well, work has gone from super busy to pretty slow and zzzzzzzzzz... oh sorry, nodded off there for a minute. Yeah, wow...slow. He told me summer was super slow, and he was not lying.
Dimensions has been having some growing pains over the past couple of weeks... hopefully on their way to worked out, we're currently offline and moving to a much larger server that will hopefully support the gigantic server load we pull. Conrad really needs help supporting the community, so if you are a member or enjoy spending time there, please consider a monthly donation (small amounts of even $5 per month are welcome!) to keep the community going. When the boards come back up, you can find all the donation information in an announcement on the top of each forum main page. Main site is dimensionsmagazine.com/forums - if you're not already a member, tell them I sent you when you sign up. :D
Soooooo, that's been taking up a lot of my time, trying to keep people up to date with the info, etc. I'm also getting ready for Memorial Day Weekend with Heavenly Bodies - going to be HUGE... we have people coming from all over the country, the UK, Canada, Australia, etc... it's nutty. :) I can't wait to see tons of my Dims friends, some for the first time, etc. You can find more info on the weekend bash here: http://superbbw.com/mem2008/index.html
I've been having some real back pain for about a year now... finally going to see a doctor about it on Monday to see if there's anything I can do. It's getting limiting and annoying to a level that I can barely explain, so I really hope he can find something treatable in there. Wish me luck!
:D posted by AM | 5/17/2008 01:06:00 PM
Saturday, April 12 Time is flying...
I can't believe it's been so long since my last post, but I've been crazy busy, so I'll run it all down for you.
I have had my surgery. My date was 3/3 and all went amazingly well. Yes, I have a few scars on my belly to show for my trouble, but the biggest one is only about 3-4 cm and they're healing really well. I am thrilled. I know it's not a huge deal, but when you're used to your body looking one way, it's hard to adjust to it looking different from something, even something as minor as tiny new scars.
So, I'm well, the tumor is gone, and I'm glad that chapter is behind me.
Work has been crazy busy before and after surgery. It's my busiest time of year right now - fall is pretty bad, but right now is nuts. I've finally got a new person who's dedicated to helping with my job, so we're working out systems and organization that will make everything smoother going forward. I'm really excited about it.
My family is good, my kitties are great, my friends are all doing ok. Keith and I are coming up on our one year anniversary, which is just weird to me since I've never had one. But it's a nice feeling to know you're both generally happy and want to move forward and just take things day by day, etc.
I'm about to pay my last HUGE tax bill as a freelance worker. Hopefully next year I'll be all set being back in the regular work force full time.
I hope you're all well... a reminder again that if you're looking for me, you can ALWAYS find me at dimensionsmagazine.com/forums - I'm there daily, so if you feel neglected here, just know that I'm out there!! :D
And finally - Jos, thank you again, so much. I still don't have your email address, but I finally got to my mailbox today and found the treats you'd sent along. Thank you! :D I love the caramels and the Droste pastilles, but it's all wonderful. And the candles are so nice, I put them on my mantle.
Okay, have a good weekend everyone... and as always, with my best intentions, I hope to be back soon with a new post.
:) posted by AM | 4/12/2008 06:26:00 PM
Tuesday, January 22 Hey everyone! :)
I had wonderful new years... visited with friends and all, it was really nice, glad to have the time away.
Things are good at work, family is doing well, kitties are in check. :)
A little over a week ago I found out I need to have surgery to remove a growth in my abdomen. From all accounts it appears benign, but still has to be removed, and it's a fair size.
So, I just wanted to drop by and let you know. I don't have a date for the procedure yet, and I am going on a trip to Texas at the end of next week for about 5 days... so that will be a nice diversion from all this.
I'm fine, healthy, just something that has to happen... and hopefully it will go off without a hitch! :)
Hope you're all very well and enjoying the new year.
:D posted by AM | 1/22/2008 07:17:00 PM