Day-to-Day Doings I read that somewhere. I wrote it down, and then I read it.
Friday, April 30
Rentals for $4 a month!
Stop the presses everyone, as some brain trust recently suggested to me in a comment (that has since been deleted for its complete idiocy) - you CAN RENT CARS FOR ONLY $4 A MONTH!!!
Yes, no more car payments - financial freedom - and unlimited driving for only F-O-U-R bucks a month. You heard it here first.
This was from a suggestion that if I cancelled the DVR service I recently started (and clearly stated the cost is $4) and put that money aside, I would have enough to pay for the car rental. Sure, that's right. Yup.
I've decided to ride the wave with the DVR service and fuck the consequences, you heard me right. I'm laying that whole, potential-rich 4 bucks on the line and throwing caution to the wind to record some programs.
Sorry for my deliquency here, everyone, but I've honestly had nothing to say lately.
I've been trapped in the house since last Tuesday... ugh, totally sucks. I was able to borrow a friends car quickly on Thursday afternoon to run a couple of errands, so that was VERY helpful.
I've been having weird dreams. I always have weird dreams, but especially for the past few nights. A few nights back it was a rather elaborate nightclub setting where we were having an event, and it had all these half walls that I had to walk across to check out the goings-on. Between all the little walls were party-goers that I had to break up (lots of huggin' and a kissin') and I just kept making the rounds, checking things out. So later, I'm going up a small staircase, and sitting on the chrome railing is Paul Yo*ung. (History on that: HUGE P.Y. fan, from way back, saw him in concert when I was like 15... cried, the whole deal.) So Paul takes my hand (swoon) and tells me that my twin was just dancing on the floor to some song, could have sworn it was me. And I said well it wasn't me, and he says "I know, you're much prettier" (dreams make no sense, she's my twin- but I'm prettier?? whatever.) Anyhoo, we talk, he's all decked out 80s style, but his hair is much longer than it ever was, and it's just crazy. I can feel my heart racing that he's there, and talking to me - he was still hot as hell. The dream wound down where I babbled on about how Between Two Fires was my favorite album, and not Secret of Association like most people probably thought. That was my lame-o superfan attempt to set myself apart. There wasn't much else to that one.
Last night, dreamland was a shoe shopping excursion where I was able to find a pair of hot pink platform sandals with an ankle strap. It was very, very exciting, let me tell you.
Oh, I also had a brief one recently about a preview for an upcoming Sop*ranos episode, and it included a scene with Furio (if you don't watch the show, never mind, not worth explaining). I was soooo excited he was coming back, thought he'd be getting together with Carmella and all that. That dream was so subversive that I was on the phone today with Pey, and we were discussing the last episode, and I actually started to say something about him coming back, and realized as I was forming the sentence that I didn't think it really happened.
I'm a nutcase.
Meanwhile, this guy I've talked to a few times tells me that he had a dream about me the other night and we were having a "really good time" (he's polite).
It was probably just a line, but why can't I have one of those dreams???? ha! :)
My car is in the shop, after going from fine to smelly, smoking crazy nightmare last night. I towed it to my shop, and that's that. They are fixing it, but it's going to take until Monday or Tuesday to get the part in, the final cost will be $1000 (and don't worry, my mechanics are GREAT, I'm not getting ripped off or anything) but it's an expensive part and it's about 6 hours labor to get the job done.
So basically, I'm screwed. I don't have that kind of money, I have to have my car, and meanwhile I'm not at the temp position that I'm supposed to be at everyday. I thought about a rental, but between the cost, the house I'm working, the commute and gas cost, I'd probably just about break even going into the office.
So, here I am no car, stuck at home... blah. Glad I didn't have any huge plans set for this weekend, because those would be long gone.
In other news, I just got DVR service from my cable company and I LOVE it. I can just tape stuff, never miss anything, have about 10 hours of shows already stacked up, and it was super cheap. I just had to switch out my box, and it's 4 dollars more a month. No service fee because of the plan I have, but even if I had to pay the service fee, it's only $4.95 a month - FAR less than the other services I've investigated where you buy the box and subscribe to the monthy service.
Alright, I think that's all I have to report at the moment.... so have a nice night everyone. :)
Oh! I tried the limited time coffee shakes at McD's.... they're pretty good!
Okay, first of all... I don't hang out and find these people, they find me. In case you haven't realized, my site is a bit of a lightning rod in the middle of a stormy field called the internet. The seek ME out, not vice versa. Just had to make that perfectly clear (I guess).
Second, this post had nothing to do with a relationship or relationship seeking... it was just a random addition to the blog, something that goes on from time to time online - I'm not looking for answers on how to fix it, it's not fixable. Just wanted to share a bit of what it's like on this side of the keyboard. It's just NOT a perfect world, and you can't just pretend it is and skip through your days. Sometimes the ugly side comes right up to greet you, whether you invited it over or not.
Third, Yes - I am quite aware these are teenagers... no question about it. Occasionally there will be an adult, but more often than not... teens. 99 percent of the time I don't even accept the incoming IM, but sometimes it's just worth it to see what unfolds. One day it happened to be a 15 year old girl who'd found my site through some classmates blog where he was making fun of me. She contacted me because she has terrible body image issues (at a whopping 105lbs), and was so excited to find my site that she wanted to talk to me and share some photography, etc. She's a nice girl, it's not always bad so I randomly accept the message and see what happens.
Wow, I feel like I just slew a dragon.... albeit a small and rather simplistic one, but still. I know some of you are probably sick of me posting this shit, but honestly... I deal with it every single day, so sometimes I feel like you should realize what it's really like out here for the gals.
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NameRemoved (3:09:26 PM): Hey AllBBW (3:09:40 PM): hi NameRemoved (3:10:27 PM): are you the fat girl AllBBW (3:10:40 PM): Yeah, I'm the only one in the whole wide world. NameRemoved (3:10:46 PM): haha that sucks NameRemoved (3:10:47 PM): FATTyAllBBW (3:10:55 PM): Doesn't suck for me. NameRemoved (3:10:56 PM): try the slim fast NameRemoved (3:10:58 PM): why NameRemoved (3:11:03 PM): how do you even move NameRemoved (3:11:04 PM): ? AllBBW (3:11:25 PM): Because I'm fine with who I am. See, now that's just stupid, I'm not going to talk to a moron. NameRemoved (3:11:33 PM): youre weird NameRemoved (3:11:37 PM): ur never gonna get a guy AllBBW (3:12:17 PM): Hmm, interesting. I guess I just imagined my relationships. NameRemoved (3:12:22 PM): yeah i think you did AllBBW (3:12:38 PM): Right, it's not just your skewed view of how the world is supposed to be. NameRemoved (3:12:46 PM): so whats it like being...how much do you weigh? NameRemoved (3:12:59 PM): ?? AllBBW (3:13:04 PM): It's like being me, what's it like being you? NameRemoved (3:13:08 PM): im not fat NameRemoved (3:13:11 PM): im skinny NameRemoved (3:13:13 PM): ur fat AllBBW (3:13:13 PM): And? AllBBW (3:13:20 PM): What does that have to do with anything? NameRemoved (3:13:21 PM): HAHAHA FAT PEOPLE ALWAYS LOOSE NameRemoved (3:13:26 PM): sex AllBBW (3:13:26 PM): I don't NameRemoved (3:13:32 PM): its unhealthy to be fat NameRemoved (3:13:36 PM): u could have a heart attack AllBBW (3:13:40 PM): I'm not unhealthy... tests are all fine. AllBBW (3:13:46 PM): Nope, heart is fine. NameRemoved (3:13:46 PM): i wanna help you through your weight loss AllBBW (3:14:00 PM): No thanks. NameRemoved (3:14:03 PM): im sure your heart is fine..... NameRemoved (3:14:26 PM): haha no if u r that over weight ur heart is definatly not fine NameRemoved (3:14:35 PM): its disgusting to be that fat AllBBW (3:14:51 PM): Ahh, see, now we get to the meat of it. You think it's disgusting, so I am wrong to be who I am. AllBBW (3:15:05 PM): I think you're a close-minded uninformed intolerant jerk, but you're free to be that way. NameRemoved (3:15:35 PM): i know i am NameRemoved (3:15:40 PM): haha no AllBBW (3:15:46 PM): So see, I'm not telling you to change. AllBBW (3:15:56 PM): go for it, embrace who you are and live a happy life. NameRemoved (3:15:56 PM): you are just harming yourself by being so over weight NameRemoved (3:16:08 PM): go run a mile NameRemoved (3:16:13 PM): then come back and tell me ur time NameRemoved (3:16:17 PM): if u make it back alive AllBBW (3:16:26 PM): Is that how you judge a full life? That's sad. NameRemoved (3:17:15 PM): if i stole your food NameRemoved (3:17:18 PM): would u get mad? NameRemoved (3:17:32 PM): how much do u eat a day? NameRemoved (3:17:38 PM): wanna have an eating contest AllBBW (3:17:55 PM): 1 meal usually, lots of water. You'd win, I'm quite sure. NameRemoved (3:18:11 PM): how can u eat 1 meal and be so fat? AllBBW (3:18:22 PM): amazing, ain't it? NameRemoved (3:18:31 PM): umm yea its kinda weird NameRemoved (3:18:35 PM): are u sure its all u eat AllBBW (3:18:36 PM): I don't exercise, that's the main problem. NameRemoved (3:18:42 PM): ya well why dont u try some day AllBBW (3:18:50 PM): I'm quite sure... yeah, maybe sometimes I'll eat lunch and dinner, but usually just dinner. NameRemoved (3:19:36 PM): whoa ummm i eat more then you and u still weigh about 3 times as much NameRemoved (3:19:39 PM): thats kinda sad AllBBW (3:19:51 PM): no, it's not sad... yet again, you're missing the point. It's DIFFERENT AllBBW (3:19:57 PM): and there is nothing wrong with different NameRemoved (3:20:03 PM): ok whatever diversity bitch
________ :) See, it's just not as much fun to pick on someone who isn't taking it. No one likes to "reason" with somebody, it's just boring.
I was thinking today about all the things that have an association with an old friend or relationship, and how after that happens you can never look at those things the same again. It wears off in time, you might not think of it EVERY time you see or hear something, but it's still there. It's weird because it can be painful and comforting at the same time, and either/or depending on the time and circumstance.
Here's a brief list of my items: Helicopters, Mar*mite, the first big snow of the year, Ocean Beach & Pacific Beach in SD (different people), LA, the Doors (two different people in two completely different ways, and the same damn people as SD - which is WEIRD), Elvis, Bruce Springsteen, Led Zepplin, anything political pretty much, Hot D*g on a Stick, beanie babies, Vegas, O Brother Where Art Thou, eh.... I could probably go on and on.
No point really, just weird the things that get wrapped up in your life and how hard it is to extricate yourself from their altered meaning or association.
Here's something for any of you in the "Show George the Door" camp. If you're pro-George, well, you probably don't want to waste your time. And, well... I'd apologize for mixing fat and politics, which I think is a deadly mix, personally. BUT this is too important, and if things don't change in November, I don't want to wonder what I could have done differently. I'm only one chick, but I've got to speak my mind.
I know it's pretty much all over, but I wanted to extend a happy holiday to anyone celebrating Easter or Passover.
I didn't do anything today (Easter for me). My mother was nice enough to bring me a little ham dinner plate, I was working at home today, so I didn't stop to go over there. We've not done a "formal" Easter dinner for a few years, and we're a super casual family anyway... so it wasn't a big deal.
I got a lot of work done, but not enough, it's going to be a busy week for me. I got an opportunity to go into my old office for a temp position for a few weeks or more, about 25-30 hours a week. It will put a crimp in my regular work time and is going to make for a really shit schedule for a while, but I feel like it's an opportunity I can't pass up given my tight funds.
email: hi i think ur site is really unacceptable as it is offfensive to all people i who are not one of these are pretty offended as i dont like to take the mick of peope.!! please stop!! I SUGGEST THAT IT DOES OR I WILL INFORM THE POLICE!!
Okie doke, clearly a well-thought out anti-fat statement from an intelligent and informed citizen. I will take it under immediate advisement.
A friend sent this to me this morning. Now it may look like one of those joke pictures that goes around in email, but it's actually FROM my town's cam. When he logged on to take a look this morning, this is what he saw... he said at first he thought we were on fire, but I had a completely different reaction.
Anyway you slice it, I thought it was pretty funny.
I read some other blogs and they're all full of fun and intrigue.
Not here, mister!
I finally had to change the cat box completely, so just for the record... still LOVE the litter, but I got ... let's say, 9 days out of it. Not freakin' bad comparatively.
We had an event this weekend, our 6th anniversary... freaky man. There were 280 people there, it was NUTS... I guess that's what happens when you invite guys for free. Honestly, it was a sad commentary on how there are so many guys who won't shell out a cover. I could make your hair white with the tales sad sacks and sneaky Pete's who try to get in and not pay like everyone else. Ahhhh, the fun and intrigue... (see there is a little, just not worth typing out).
So that was that. I came home and my mother, who I must say... ROCKS my world sometimes. I love her completely anyway, but this weekend while I was out, she came here... washed all my dishes, cleaned up my kitchen, fed da' boyz, AND she left me a yummy chicken pie in the fridge. When I got home Sunday night (no food, mind you) all I had to do was pop it in the oven and I was a happy, happy girl.
She also came by today and emptied all my garbage cans. I know that may seem odd, but you know how you have garbage in your room, the bathrooms, etc... and you just wait until you have to step on the can to collect it all and take it out? Yeah, I was there... so that was neat. *echo as she sticks her head near the can*
I worked all day, under a very stressful deadline which sucked. I made a cheeseball tonight, it was pretty good. Seems to be missing a little something... or the crackers are wrong, it could be that.
I got a huge check I was waiting on to be able to pay my taxes, and I can't even tell you the relief that was. *wipes brow* Money is really tight right now, so that's one less thing to panic about... now I only have to worry about the normal stuff... you know, rent, bills, blah, blah.
*scratches head and wonders why she keeps typing this stuff*
