Gobble, gobble, gobble.

Ahhhh yes, it was feast day here in the states. And feast I did, although it was only one helping of all, it was plenty to fill my belly: turkey, mashed potatoes, stuffing, green bean casserole, rolls, and there was a nice apple pie and vanilla ice cream. I actually just realized that the corn was missing... dammit all.

Anyway, it was a nice day, very quiet, very casual... nice day to reflect on what I do hold dear in my life, the things I have, the things I've experienced, known, even people I've known, etc. It's hard to cram that all into a day of random thoughts, but it's a nice time to sort of take a minute to realize what is really important. Family, friends, love, support... and enjoying life.

Hope you all had a wonderful day and took the same time to cherish the special things you have in your life. You just never know how long you'll have them, it's important to get the most out of the time. (Not trying to be morbid... :) - just mean that it's important to realize what matters).

The sloops are back!!!

I went to check my mailbox today, and a good friend of mine (fat girl extraordinaire) sent me a HUGE box of Sloops!! Yummmm. I already ate 8 of them, they're so damn good.

Soo, sloop count to date is:
Sloops received: 110 (one box of 38 before, and now this box of 72)
Sloops eaten: 46 (I'm sure that number will increase pretty fast).

Well... that's all for now. I'm having a trying week, holidays and all, and things from the past on my mind. But hey, it comes and goes... some days are more difficult than others, and it certainly evens out in the end. :)

Real Women Have Curves - Movie Moment

I saw this movie today. It was pretty good.

The basic story is a graduating girl, from a hard-working family with no money. Her mom is very old-fashioned, and unwilling to accept her daughter's new ideas of what her life holds and can be. The movie is basically her struggle to break out of the predetermined mold and head out on her own path, with her own mind and ideas.

She's a chunky girl, which is a constant issue between her mother and herself... mom calls her 'butterball', etc. She does meet a boy though, who is VERY attracted to her, although you are left with the idea at the end that she still didn't really believe it. (Sometimes it takes a special man, or two, to get that through our heads. :)

It's an independent film, so not very flashy, but well told, good characters, excellent performances I thought... overall, I'd say it's a "go see". It's not an "overly" chick film, but the main characters ARE all women, so bear that in mind... no explosions, car chases or fight scenes. :)

Sweet Sixteen.

My mom arranged a surprise party. I thought all my friends forgot, and was pretty disappointed, but I'm just not the type to run around reminding people, so that was that.

I got home and all my friends were waiting downstairs in my house, yelled surprise, the whole nine yards. I was so excited, my closest friends, just a fun time, snacks, movies, general silliness... it was so nice. I was shocked, and my mom was taking pictures, it was so neat. Remember disc cameras? Yeah, that's what we were using. She forgot to open the lens.

15 pictures of nothing. I'm glad it made a mental impression that I can still recall even today. Party or not, I always have that one in my head. :)

I don't feel any different yet today. Maybe after I go to bed and wake up, I don't think my body gets that it's already "tomorrow". :) Night folks.

What is going on?????? Ahhhhhh!

Sooo, just had a rather nasty nor'easter here in New England. I'm not sure if anyone outside of New England is familiar with the "nor'easter", but they vary from strong winds and rain, to VERY strong winds and heavy snow, ice, etc. They usually last a day or so, sometimes even a bit longer. Anyway, yesterday and today we had one here, and it was pretty nasty... lots of icing, winds, heavy rain.

I was driving to our dance, and in the middle of the ride (about an hour and 15 mins total), my right windsheild wiper stops, and the left one smashes into it on the way down, breaking the wiper blade in half. GREAT!! So now I'm blind, driving, trying to pull off with one wiper, on the passengers side. I pulled off, fixed what I could, and drove up to a gas station. Bought a new blade for my side, and the passengers side just stopped working completely.

So I stayed over last night, the weather was SOOOO bad, I wouldn't have driven home no matter what, just sheets of ice everywhere. I'm driving home today, on the highway again, and the passengers side wiper suddenly is moving again, but not properly... sort of half assed. Half up, then stuck, etc. So, in a matter of minutes the same damn thing happens except this time, the wiper actually flew off the car and onto the highway. Yeah, happy girl. It's pouring, can't drive that way.

I called AAA, and a very nice tow driver picked me up, then while driving he decided that he would take off the other arm, move the wiper blade over, and that I could drive home with just that one wiper, which was fine by me... he was really nice, even when to his landscaping shop to get a socket to get the wiper arm off. I tipped him for the help, he seemed shocked. I was just glad to be able to go home.

Then I got home and my front floor was all wet. Seems that the water/wind combo was a bit too much for my front door and the elements invaded my living room.

So, in closing... I really feel as if water has been my nemesis for the past few days. It's like all those little drops are ganging up on me!

Ok, bitch over, I'm going to have some milk and cookies.

Waahhhh... where is everything? Archives are AWOL again, and now the little number next to the comments has taken leave.

I think I have a blog poltergeist. A bloggergeist.

Water, water everywhere and so much work to do.

Ok, really... what is with the water in my life today? I had a team of guys in here replacing sprinkler heads, took the better part of the day to get that project done. Then, they put the water back on to test them, and one is leaking... quite a bit. To fix it, of course, they have to saw a hole in my ceiling. Sooooo, now, with hole in ceiling, and no more sound of trickling stream in my hallway... I head out to find some food.

I open my car door and I can actually HEAR sloshing. Water sloshing. It's pouring out here today, and much of that rainfall has found its way into the passengers side of my car, all over the floor, soaking wet, mess. Seems my windsheild seal has sprung a leak of some kind.

Okay, enough water.... all the escapades today kept me busy and not able to do the work I needed, until late afternoon... so I'm bit behind now on some deadlines. I'll be playing catch up tomorrow (after the car goes in for an "air" test to find out where it's leaking).

Here's hoping my new year (starting next Thursday) holds a bit more "fun" than this one has so far. (Although Vegas redeemed a large part of this year!) :)

*blink*

WWII forum coming to my site 2000 times in a week??

I have NOOOOO idea where they are coming from, but I get THIS SITE as a top referrer in my statistics. That page brings you to a message forum with discussion boards, which are all pretty on topic, except on board that is clearly listed "Off Topic".

I have searched through message strings, looked around, etc... and can't find ANY mention of me, or a picture, etc... but it has to be there someplace. SOOOOO, if you're from that board, could you please either leave a "polite" comment here, or drop me an email and tell me where I am mentioned and how?? I'd really appreciate it.

Thanks.

Hmm, seem to have lost my archives again.

:(
Hopefully they'll come back magically like they did a month or so ago.

Follow up on last post.

I just saw Lynn's comment, and I wanted to elaborate a bit. I didn't SEE the show as I said, but only the After the Show things... and my rant was very directed at what I saw there.

I too believe that there are people out there with genuine overeating/eating disorders, and that those may be a result of issues in their past, etc. My issue with the show was the level of unbalance that I saw. I just didn't see any representation of the fat girl who's just a fat girl, who isn't hiding behind food, who doesn't eat extraordinary amounts of it, etc. I am one of those girls, and my annoyance stems from that.

The amount of people who watch that show and take it as gospel is astounding. I do not need these people thinking "they heard it on O. it must be true" and assuming I am injured, overeating, hiding from the world, expecting less of myself, etc.

But Lynn, yes... I agree... there are legitimate eating issues for some people and I think it's very important to address those. I for one have a HUGE issue with carbs, and I know that heading down the road that is going to become an issue of blood sugar. It's something that I will have to address and change in time - so I just wanted you to know that I am not someone who thinks that all big girls should just be fine and dandy.... I just wish more people would let US make the decision, rather than assuming I'd "rather" be something other than me. :)

Be good.

Orpah comments. (It's deliberate, I don't need to be discovered on a search engine by her legion of do-gooders).

I didn't watch the show yesterday - I haven't talked to a happy fat person yet who was at all pleased with how it went. Although, I have to admit to giving in to the temptation LATE last night and watching about 10 mins of the "After the Show" thing she has on her cable channel.

I saw enough to enrage me, and it's clear I made the right decision for ME by not watching the episode. I don't watch O. anyway, so it would have been a deliberate move to catch it.

The after the show basically boiled down to "food isn't the problem, whatever you are hiding inside and covering with all this FAT is the problem. You have to get to that problem to solve the fat."

I wasn't abused. Was I and I just forgot? Who the hell knows - but if I was, I was a FAT abused kid, so the fat came first and not the abuse.

Fuck pop psychology, some of us are just what we are... and all hail those who've found the determination and resolve to be happy in their own skin.

Sounds like if O. and her minions had their way, I'd just be in a program for denial until I belch out the name/episode of the atrocity that led me down this adipose path.

**I posted this on the Dim WB as well, so if you read both, you're seeing double. I just wanted to put it here for those who visit my site, but don't go to the board.**

People actually read this.

I knew there was maybe one person, the nice guy who sent me some candy. :) But now 6 of you have posted... so that's 6 people at least. I feel the pressure now. The eyes, the glares, the expectations.

Ahhhhhh!!

Okay, I'm kidding. We're good. :) Thanks for the comments so far, and no worries for those wondering about "negative vibes"... I have an editing feature. ;)

Was it a bad idea to eat a chili dinner past 11pm? I will soon find out.

Talk back!

Oh yeah, I finally figured out how to do it... and found a free program that would allow me to do it. What is it, you ask?? You can comment on my blog now. I know this isn't rocket science to many of you, but I'm not a "coder" and I was lost on getting this done. I found this neat feature called Haloscan (link at bottom of page), which generates free code for you to place in your blog template. Voila!

You just click on Comment at the end of every post in order to add a comment, or click on the (#) following comment to read any responses that have been left.

I hope you find this a useful tool, and hope anyone has anything to contribute to the complete drivel that usually ends up in here. :) (I will be adding a comment to this in a moment so you can see how it works/looks).

Thanks!